I decided not to pack any of my cosplay and instantly regretted it as I sat on the plane. (Yes, I woke up late and had to rush into a cab. Thus, I was not able to give myself additional leisurally pack time.) I felt like I was headed to battle with no armour. Not that seeing my folks is a battle but heading to a strange land sense. When I cosplay I can embody a facade and allow the world to only see that side and be less vulnerable. Eventhough, I am far from shy, I get overwhelmed around other nerdy folx. I start to question my own belonging to a space and ask "am i nerdy enough to be here?" Yes, I do love anime (Kabanari of the Iron Fortress, Erased, Black Butler) and comic books (BloodShot-reboot) and cosplay but it can still be nerve wrecking to walk into an established game night in a new place. And just a little cosplay gives a the no judge I need.
WHEN I arrived home my mom had purchased new STAR TREK swag for me. It is a blessing to have parents that support my nerdiness. I know that not everyone has that family support. My folks may not understand that Rolling Through the Galaxy is a board game or the differences between a klingon, romulan & trill or why I had to have a specific coat for screen accuracy of my cosplay but they are aware and supportive. From Mom, taking me to every thrift store to find the perfect dress to cosplay Shinobu (No more Heros) or a late night phone call with my Father to assist me with fixing my sewing machine. It makes my nerdy heart smile!
Long Island Who 4 is the fourth Long Island Doctor Who Convention that celebrates all the Whovians and their love for Dr.Who. Last year, I attended for the first time and did a 24-hour "closet cosplay" for the character Saibra from the TIME HEIST episode of Doctor Who. After having a lovely time, I decided to upgrade my cosplay and compete in my very first cosplay competition. I started by scouring the internet for the original jacket but there was a no go. Then, I went to ebay and international sites for similar pieces to deconstruct and make into the jacket. It is a major component of her look and I really wanted it to be scene accurate. After collecting all materials and forming a mental plan, I started on this journey. As the months turned to weeks and days, I started to get nervous about my first competitions. The pants were the easiest part because it was mostly deconstructing. The bottom helm was the most important to remove to create the slouchy look with my Payless boots to mimic the picture. So, the jacket was another story...I used a black pashmina scarf to create the hood look, removed collar portion/multiple zippers and extraneous belts/buckles from the jacket. A brick red scarf was stitched to collar to give the illusion of her loose shirt. After stitching the scarf in place, velcro was used to generate the correct draping. A snap button is used to secure the hood but the outer button is to keep the look of the original jacket. The gloves were the last item that I bought at a local "Rainbow" style store in the men's section. Leading up to and upon arrival I was quite nervous about competing that I bite my thumb nail almost to the skin. I spent about 3 hours prepping my make-up and hair after studying screenshots and footage of the episode. After reviewing the rules, I decided to say one of Saibra's lines during the stage portion of the competition. With all the bravery I could muster, I went before the judges and audience and competed. After the judges deliberated, it was announce that I won the Fierce Award. My main reason for pushing for an overall upgrade and competing was to prove to myself that I could do it. I started with LI Who because I have friends and support there. I am looking forward to returning for LI WHO 5 and being part of the TimeLord Timeline.